#WhoWouldIBe

Today at work, I didn't stand up for myself. I know now that I should have. But at the time, I was surprised by the rudeness of the other person who had called in.

I kind of hate myself for not standing up for myself and I really wish I had. However, as is always sod's law, it probably won't happen again. But I know now that I will stand up for myself next time. I just need to doubt myself less and have more confidence because I know that I am and can be good at what I do.

#NewBeginnings

Yes, the posts are getting fewer and fewer, but I have a good excuse.
I have been working errr-day... which is fab, but I am just getting used to the routine of working again. Having not worked for like 4 months or so and has been hard and I think I was a little depressed.

Anyway, I hope that you are having a better week.

Went cycling around the town, getting to know where I live, which is helpful because I need to know my way around.

Well, have a good day and write soon.

#Loosetea

I'm trying out a detox routine. Well, one that I can manage. I've tried to follow other detox routines and half the time if not all the time, I struggle because I end up thinking that am on a diet.

Anyway, my routine is simply not cut everything out completely, such as dairy but drink yoghurt, however, no cheese or butter and such. No bread and instead have pitta and instead of salad cream, I am using extra virgin olive oil. Basically, I am replacing one for another. Yes, you may say, but that's more or less a diet. Well for me it isn't.

Wish me luck.

Ps: I want to see how long I last...

#Lastdayoff

I start my new job next week and today is officially my last day off in a long time. You may wonder why I am saying it's my last day off and yet there is the weekend to come as well it being bank holiday. But I will be working on the bank holiday, well, a half day, so being technical here, I'll say that I am working then.

And what am I doing on my day off? Not much and trying to sign up for a creative writing course, trying to see if I can find a free one as money is scarce these days.

#Unbelievable

Today I am feeling a little down. I guess it's because of everything that's going on in my life, especially with my family. That said, I am not sad about it in any way. I appreciate that there will always be misunderstandings and it's how I deal with them that gets me through it all, but at the same time, I can't help but wonder.

Anyway, enough of that...

Have I told you of my plan to venture further into writing? Well, if I haven't, I would like to officially say that I am venturing further into writing and that I am currently working on a graphic novel... I don't know how it will turn out, and I am hoping that it will be well received. I will keep you updated on that.

#Birthdayweekend

Isn't it great to share the same birthday as Shakespeare? Well, if you know of him that is. I went abroad for the weekend, to attend a wedding and then a wonderful birthday surprise lunch.

It was a good weekend for me and I hope that they carry on like this. Also, I got a new job!! Hooray!! I mean, after months of searching, I have finally found one that I believe I will enjoy, so fingers and toes crossed. It will be a Monday to Friday job, and I hoping that I will manage my time better and do more writing, so here's to more writing, even though I know that I am the only person who will every read this. But oh well, beggars can't be choosers like the saying goes, right?

Anyhoo,  I have to go do some exercise now and then go through my wardrobe, as I have put on a bit of weight, and on a mission to tone up my muscles but keep the weight I guess. It is who I am now and so I have to accept it. And I hope that you too have accepted who you are. I am on the path of enlightenment, and even though I occasionally get upset or angry at stuff, I am learning to let go and let flow.

Yap, my new mantra, let go let flow (#ThinkLikeAManquotes).

#ThisTuesday

So as always, I am sitting here babysitting my niece who is about five months old. She's got a bad cough and cold and this makes breathing difficult for her. Bless her little heart.

Anyway, I can't quite remember whether I posted anything yesterday and I don't think I did as I was up at about 6am and on the road. It was family day yesterday with the family. Went out to this sort of, I don't even know what to call it, but its a place where kids go and try different jobs and even earn as they go. Oh yeah, I remembered that it's called #Kidzania. I think that the kids loved it. And when I say kids, I mean from the age of 4 to 14 and or 15. There were no jobs like lawyers and secret agents, as my 11 and 13-year-old niece and nephew pointed out to me with such disappointment. Well, apparently there was an 'agent' job but it was for being an estate agent, which they didn't find as cool. Otherwise, on the whole, I think they had a fantastic experience.

Thing about it though is that it is designed for constant exploration, as in, kids have to keep going back there, which I think isn't very practical for parents seeing how pricey it is anyway. The money or 'kidzos' that they earn, isn't even enough for them to buy anything after the four-hour session. They also have to wait up to an hour for some jobs and can more or less do only just one job per hour, from which they earn from 8 to 12 kidzos - well, that was from the jobs that my lot did - and they needed at least 75 kidzos to open an account. They were given 50 kidzos to start off with, and what they did with it when they got in, had a great deal to do with what they wanted to do.

However, when all that is said, they learnt a great deal about life and money. Remember when I said that they didn't have enough money to do buy something with the kidzos? Well, they also learnt that you have to work hard for the money you make in order to buy the things you want and it showed to them that parents have to work all the time. And that my dear friends or just me (uh huh) is why I still think it's a great experience for kids, and adults too because the adults get to see what their kids like to do or think a job entails.

Well, I am going to go back to babysitting as my niece is getting cranky.

Have a good day.

#HappyEaster

Happy Easter!

I hope you had a fantastic day today seeing that tomorrow is Bank holiday Monday.

I most definitely had a fantastic day where I ate so much and now totally don't regret it. I have put on weight as my brother annoyingly reminded me and now I feel even more plumper than I used to. (sigh*) Anyway, I still had a fantastic day. Spent the day with family and almost thought that I couldn't make it in time after last night when I went to sleep at about 3am. I honestly didn't hear my alarm go off at 7am, or I did and I turned it off. I thought I was dreaming to be honest and then to realise that it most likely went off and for like half an hour and still nothing. Must have been knackered.

Anyhoo, thought I'd check in and make sure that you are had a great day and if it's your birthday - happy birthday - otherwise, #BeCool and chat tomorrow.

#WhatADay

Without further a dew, today or shall I say yesterday was a fantastic day. I supported my mum in her endeavours and then went for a couple of drinks with a friend who is leaving the UK.
I will miss her dearly, but really happy for her.

I am tipsy right now, so will only say this coz I dont know what elase i'll say.

Have a good night peeps.

#SameDate

So why is it that whenever I book a holiday or make plans for certain dates when I get closer to the dates, something else, which is also important, comes up. I mean, it's like a can't say no to the one that I planned before and I don't want to say no to the one that just came up.

What I am basically talking about is when plans and commitments clash. I mean, choosing because I booked a holiday and going to an event or work #awkward when I want to do both, why can't that come up on another day? You know what, I think I should start booking holidays so things like this happen more often.

Anyway, I did feel like a rant today and I am glad that that is out of my system now.

How are you doing today?

#Sunnyday

Just had another brilliant thought from my brilliant mind as I do. I will use hashtags for my post subjects from on. This is in the hope that if someone hashtags something, I will accidently come up, which I have to admit is a pretty darn good idea. Brilliant! Just brilliant!

And I will not apologise for doing this because I do not apologise for what ideas that I think are brilliant. Please note that the apologising is for my ideas only, even though they may not be brilliant to some people, and if not, all people. But still, I don't mind.

So here goes #brilliantideas

My mind and writing.

I think that I am in a bad place a lot lately, both mentally and physically. And as much as I would like to say that all is well, it really isn't.

I have started to write again and reading old shorts and little segments that I have written in the past, I actually think - no, I actually believe that I am not bad of a writer. In fact, I would like to write about my experience in boarding school after watching St Trinian's a couple of weeks ago. My experience, I have to admit, was not the same as the girls in that particular school, but I can somehow relate to it.

Also, I realised that I used to love writing so much, that I have like five to six books with poems and things that I thought were stupid at the time but I think I will share them with you sometime.
That said, focusing on one thing is quite difficult for me. I struggle with words in the sense that I never know whether it's appropriate or even any good at the time, which can be said about my writing as well.

When people win awards for the way they write, I am always fascinated by how they managed to achieve that and then I sort of picture them going over what they've written like a million times and that's when I have a little giggle (giggling right now thinking about it*). But I have decided that from now on, I will not prove read my writing. I'll just type it up and hope for the best. Of course, I will check a sentence if I see the red line spell checker because I am curious that way. Anyhoos, we'll see how we get on...

My kind of day

My kind of day I would like to think would be like most people would be to sit around all day watching TV. But honestly speaking (typing), that's sadly not true. My kind of day is where I get to do all that I set out to do from the moment that I 'officially' got out of bed. Now just so I am clear, 'officially' out of bed is when I am definitely not going back to bed until bedtime.

I always dream up things that I need to do before the end of the day. There are days when I actually get that stuff done and then there are days that I am completely lazy. I procrastinate all the time. It's like a part of me that I am slowly learning to accept and somehow manage to overcome.

So today, seeing that I have written anything in a long time. I am going to write a couple of blogs to make me feel better about my achievements for the day, and that my dear, will be my kind of day.